Tied Together with a Smile :}

♪♫ Seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty
Is the face in the mirror looking back at you
You walk around here thinking you're not pretty
But that's not true, cause I know you... ♪♫

I have a long history of having "no self-confidence".  I have moved on past that somewhat.  I took me realizing that I am a daughter of Heavenly Father for me to see my true potential.  My problem has always been more "my looks".  I am told by so many of my amazing friends that I am beautiful, but I tend to say "Thank you" and move on without really believing them....

♪♫ Hold on, baby, you're losing it
The water's high, you're jumping into it
And letting go... and no one knows
That you cry, but you don't tell anyone
That you might not be the golden one
And you're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone ♪♫

I see myself as an introvert.  A lot of people would probably see me as an extrovert, because I seem to be able to share my feelings really easily.  On the contrary, when people ask what's wrong I tell them just enough to satisfy.  I keep the really hard things bottled up.  Imagine with me a glass bottle with a cork on top.  That glass bottle holds everything that I keep inside.  Everytime something new is added to it the cork has to be forced in harder and harder.  At some point there is to much in the bottle and it causes the cork to pop off , or even causes the bottle to break.  I hold so much inside me that my emotional "glass bottle" just cannot hold anymore....

♪♫ I guess it's true that love was all you wanted
Cause you're giving it away like it's extra change
Hoping it will end up in his pocket
But he leaves you out like a penny in the rain
Oh, cause it's not his price to pay
Not his price to pay... ♪♫

I often wonder how my "love life" will go down when I start college and my "adulthood" life.  Will I be one of those people that gets asked out a lot or the ones who don't often get married until they are in their thirties, if married at all...

♪♫ You're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone... oh
Goodbye, baby
With a smile, baby, baby ♪♫