Who am I?

The past few months have been a little rough for me emotionally.  I have felt like all I am is some extra person in the background of this humongous world.  I don't feel pretty mostly because of the acne on my face and all my friends get the attention of the boys, while I get to sit there and watch.  It bothers me.  I feel like I am probably going to grow up and never get married until after I can't have kids or something.  I get scared of that.  My self-esteem has just been really low.   My friends try to help me snap out of it, but I just can't. 
   About a month ago I had just gotten home from seminary and I was sitting on my bed thinking about the events that had happened.  My friend had been telling us about how she had just been asked to prom.  Let's be honest,  I was REALLY jealous!  I sat there and all I could think about was how pretty she is, how she gets all the boys, her amazing talents, etc.  Then out of nowhere I just broke down and cried!  The tears just flowed for what felt like hours (it was not even 5 minutes).  Finally I decided to pray.  I needed guidance and comfort.  After pretty much telling my Heavenly Father the whole story I felt comfort and heard a voice telling me that I had true potential and that I am beautiful in the Lord's eyes and that's all that should matter.  A couple of days later I felt a prompting to email a friend of mine and tell her what I was gong through.   I fought with it for a while than finally without knowing why I was doing it I sent her the email.  I didn't expect a response so I didn't check it for a while than once again I felt the prompting to check my emails.  I did and sure enough she had just barely responded to me.  It was probably the best letter I gave ever received!  Here are some of the words she sent to me.

"No one really has an amazing life at 14. Some do at 17, though they are few and far between. I have learned that I spent so much time wishing my life was just like 'Lynn's' that I no longer worked to make mine better. I wasn't improving myself, helping others, or working hard in school the way I do now. And I couldn't move on until I got it through that thick skull of mine that no one can judge my life but myself, and not even then sometimes. We don't know every aspect of our life, or how it will affect us later."

"One day, when you least expect it, the Lord will send you, as inconspicuously as possible, a nervous boy with young ideas who will grow into the man of your dreams, who will appreciate you for your beauty as a woman of God, as well as your imperfections as a mortal on this earth just trying to find their way. That's when you'll realize everything you'd overlooked before."

 That's all I am going to share.  It's an email that I will treasure the rest of my life!   Even though I still struggle feeling beautiful and getting boy's attention to I do know for a surety now that I am a daughter of a loving Heavenly Father!  He has an important work for me to do!  He loves me!  He loves you too!  I know this gospel is true!  What would I do without the church in my life?  I have no idea!  He sent his son Jesus Christ to suffer for my sins, trials, and feelings!  He suffered for everyone!  I feel the power of that in my life daily.  Even though I make mistakes quite often he is always ready to forgive me!